Post by Juihau on Jul 29, 2015 0:19:13 GMT -5
I've never been particularly open with anyone beyond a select very few people, so here's a bit of a change of pace.
From what I've heard, I don't show a whole lot of emotion. I seem to go through life with an odd sort of poker face and very rarely make it known what I'm thinking, or really even saying much at all. Hell, I've been a member here for roughly a year and a half, and most of you all probably think of me as being pretty new, considering this is only my 58th post and all. I only started posting with anything resembling regularity in the past couple months. Honestly, I just don't have a whole lot to say, really, so just being able to pop in whenever something does come up in this empty void of a head I have suits me. That's not what this is about, though.
I have a friend I've known for about 7 years, and she's about 3 years older than me. I care about her immensely, to an extent that I don't think I can really exaggerate. She's hit a bit of a rough spot in life, though, and has kind of...retracted into herself, you could say? Like, even if she seems to be enjoying a particular moment, it's hard to find a point where you could describe her as 'happy,' even briefly. Honestly, she's a strong person, and I trust that she'll be able to get through whatever the problem is, but I do worry about her. If there's some way I could help lift the burden, even a little, I'd be willing to take on whatever that entailed. To me, that's worth it. That said, though, she actively refuses to even tell me what it is, "for my benefit." Because telling me would be putting too great a burden on me, and she's not willing to do that. That's what bothers me, though. It seems like she's trying to protect me from something, but I don't understand what could be so bad that just knowing about it would be too much for me. I've ran through insane amounts of possible scenarios in my head, from relatively mundane to needlessly morbid, but no matter what I look at, I can't imagine how not telling me would be better for me. I could understand if she just didn't feel comfortable talking about it, or if it's just something she doesn't want me involved in, but the fact she specifically says that it's for my own benefit... I just feel so helpless. Like even if there is something I can do to help, there's no way for me to even know what it is... I'm just really worried about her.
From what I've heard, I don't show a whole lot of emotion. I seem to go through life with an odd sort of poker face and very rarely make it known what I'm thinking, or really even saying much at all. Hell, I've been a member here for roughly a year and a half, and most of you all probably think of me as being pretty new, considering this is only my 58th post and all. I only started posting with anything resembling regularity in the past couple months. Honestly, I just don't have a whole lot to say, really, so just being able to pop in whenever something does come up in this empty void of a head I have suits me. That's not what this is about, though.
I have a friend I've known for about 7 years, and she's about 3 years older than me. I care about her immensely, to an extent that I don't think I can really exaggerate. She's hit a bit of a rough spot in life, though, and has kind of...retracted into herself, you could say? Like, even if she seems to be enjoying a particular moment, it's hard to find a point where you could describe her as 'happy,' even briefly. Honestly, she's a strong person, and I trust that she'll be able to get through whatever the problem is, but I do worry about her. If there's some way I could help lift the burden, even a little, I'd be willing to take on whatever that entailed. To me, that's worth it. That said, though, she actively refuses to even tell me what it is, "for my benefit." Because telling me would be putting too great a burden on me, and she's not willing to do that. That's what bothers me, though. It seems like she's trying to protect me from something, but I don't understand what could be so bad that just knowing about it would be too much for me. I've ran through insane amounts of possible scenarios in my head, from relatively mundane to needlessly morbid, but no matter what I look at, I can't imagine how not telling me would be better for me. I could understand if she just didn't feel comfortable talking about it, or if it's just something she doesn't want me involved in, but the fact she specifically says that it's for my own benefit... I just feel so helpless. Like even if there is something I can do to help, there's no way for me to even know what it is... I'm just really worried about her.