Post by cltheo on Jan 10, 2017 0:37:30 GMT -5
Ever since I was a kid I was always the shy loner type out of fear of getting 'hurt' by people'. Even as an adult, I still feel this way. I mean ATM I'm in Florida with my best friend, but part of me would rather just end the trip early and go home. If anyone's seen my vids or gotten to know me, I'm a bit of a smartass who loves to joke and make fun of myself. It's a weird combination. On one hand I love socializing and making people laugh, and on the other I'd rather be by myself only to get lonely later. It's why I've had trouble keeping a strong relationship which honestly gets to me since I would love to settle down and start a family.
I suffer from depression and anxiety, but I've been on medication for years now. I'm in a much better state of mind and am happy for the most part, but part of me still reverts back to the shy guy whos afraid of the world only to return to being the loveable smartass. Part of me knows it's never to late to change (especially after the holidays when A Christmas Carol was airing a lot) and that being afraid of the world will only create more regrets. It's just I'm a stubborn guy who's been backstabbed so many times now (one around the holidays) that it almost just doesn't seem worth it anymore.
Anyone else feel the same way?
I suffer from depression and anxiety, but I've been on medication for years now. I'm in a much better state of mind and am happy for the most part, but part of me still reverts back to the shy guy whos afraid of the world only to return to being the loveable smartass. Part of me knows it's never to late to change (especially after the holidays when A Christmas Carol was airing a lot) and that being afraid of the world will only create more regrets. It's just I'm a stubborn guy who's been backstabbed so many times now (one around the holidays) that it almost just doesn't seem worth it anymore.
Anyone else feel the same way?
